The Falling of Tears and the rolling of Emotions

In my work, I teach clients how to let go, how to be ‘in the moment’, how to allow themselves to cry. Tears are healing I will say. Just let them come and you will feel better, I will say. Well, do you know what. I lied. You don’t feel better, I don’t feel better and I have cried buckets of tears these past weeks. Do I feel better? Does letting go make you feel better? No it doesn’t and I apologise to everyone I have told that they do.

I thought that once we had made the choice, as to what treatment David will undergo, we, or rather I as I can only speak for myself, would feel better. I don’t. We don’t as yet know whether the surgeon will operate as my hubsnad is over 70. This in itself causes us obvious worry. It is all in the hands…